Well I probably shouldn't write in this right now. I'm kinda having a bad day and am a little frustrated! Well last week was pretty good. Thanksgiving was fun. It was good to be with family although I'm not going to lie I was kind of a jerk at times. You know I'm not normally like that but for some reason when I'm around family I guess I just fall back into that role that I was used to, the role that I was comfortable with you know with being the 4th and all. It's kinda stupid though because I'm a lot more mature than that and I'm really not like that anymore. Anyway, it was just good to be with family and everything. So when I came home I jumped back into school which as usual is kind of frustrating. I mean it's not like I'm doing terrible it's just that I want to do better. I don't understand why I study and study yet can't do as well as everyone else or as well as I want to. It's just frustrating but it's okay. Then my district of missionaries left on monday. They gave me an awesome gift. They bought me a triple combination Book of Mormon and they all wrote a note and highlighted their favorite verse. It was really sweet. I really do miss them. I was so sad to see them leave and everything. I mean I just feel like I gave them my whole heart. I worked so hard. I put them first with everything, a lot of times before myself and most times before friends and anything else. So when they left it was kind of hard. But I really am proud of them. I pushed them really hard and they really responded well. Anyway they are all amazing and I love them so much. Yesterday though when I checked my teacher evaluations I was very surprised that I didn't get as high as I was expecting. I just felt like I did everything better than my last district and felt a lot closer to them and more aware of their needs. But I guess that's what happens when you are a girl teaching a bunch of elders. And I really tried to follow the Spirit in everything that I did. But yeah I'll admit that I was pretty strict with them at times. I just felt that that's what they needed. And honestly I just knew that they could be better. But maybe I was too hard on them I don't know. It's funny because many people told me that they were the best district they have ever seen. I'll admit that it was due to them and the things that they did. Anyway, I know this shouldn't be bothering me but for some reason it is. Maybe it's just that time of the month. It's just frustrating because I try to do my best but it never seems good enough. But that's okay because that's how life is. It's never going to be good enough and I finally have been starting to understand that because I've been reading "Following Christ" and we talked a lot about grace and the atonement in New testament class. I know that I can't be perfect. No one can be perfect. And we are all already in the kingdom since we've been baptized and such so we just need to stay on the path. That's what I'm trying to do. Sometimes I worry about some insignificant things. And I guess I need to practice what I preach haha....I think I've talked to my missionaries about grace so many times! Anyway, I'll get over it. That's just how life is. And I just got called as relief society president in my ward so that adds to all the stress. Anyway, I'm done. I just needed to ramble for a few minutes there but I'm better now. Things will be busy next semester and I really need to study a lot more for the GRE. But you know what, whatever is meant to be will happen. All I can do is keep trying my hardest and put the Lord first and I know that things will work out. Things have a way of doing that! :) So anyway, I've finished one final, now I have a test, a paper and then it's time to study for my other finals. I really hope I do well! Saturday morning I'm going to a convention for my major then we are going to look around temple square then go and help out at the basketball game. I'm excited because they are playing at the energy solutions arena (formerly the Delta Center). So that'll be fun! I just need to study for my test before then since that's on monday. Then sunday is going to be really busy because I'm going to Music and the Spoken Word with my ward and then meetings, church and then we are going to the Christmas devotional! So it'll be a long but great sunday! I'm so looking forward to this weekend!! Anyway, it's long past my bedtime because I have to teach at 7 in the morning. Yay I have a new district. They'll definitely be different from my last district so it'll be a challenge. But I'm so excited!!